Tuesday night around 6 pm Trey and I walked into UT Southwestern labor and delivery to start induction. I had a precious nurse Nikki that I soon became besties with. We both have a love for shopping and talked about our favorite Etsy stores, baby boutiques, and life in general. She was perfectly what I needed..low key and an instant friend! They gave me some pain medicine and an Ambien to sleep and the morning we would start the process! Around 7 am they started my Petocin drip and things went relatively slow. Our new day nurse was Maria and she was just as precious. She was so calming and helpful. We asked her around lunch what time she predicted and how fast she thinks London would come..she predicted 8-9 pm.
A few hours later around 2 pm Trey noticed in my face I was experiencing pain. My epidural was working but something was changing. I started to get "the shakes". My nurse checked and said "we're having a baby!" All nurses rushed in, NICU and Dr. Santiago were setting up. Dr. Santiago had to tell me to stop pushing because London was COMING! We didn't push long at all.
At 3:31 we heard the loudest scream and sweet girl was thrown on my chest. They immediately took her off and NICU assessed her. They put her by my face and took her out. Immediately in the NICU they started her prostaglandins and incubated her to be taken to Childrens.
After birth I had really bad shakes and was in quite a bit of pain. They took me to postpartum and had to give me medicine to basically knock me out. A few hours later I was talking to my mom in the room and the nurse said "Michelle..Trey needs to talk to Chelsey"..
Trey came in with the red swollen eyes and a white piece of paper. I immediately thought London had already died. Trey sat on my bed and told me that her pulmonary veins are small and this doctor doesn't think she's life sustaining. I went numb. No tears, because I had none.
Trey laid down next to me and two hours later a nurse from Childrens that was caring for London said "this baby isn't that baby..please hold out hope that that is not the case.."
Morning comes and two doctors come in and said London did excellent overnight on her own. Her flow through those small pulmonary veins is excellent. Although they are small they don't compromise her in any way. They said they are so sorry for our experience and they can't control people's attitudes or what comes out of other doctors mouths.
Trey immediately gets to hold her and he crashes. Emotionally and physically all he wants to do is hold her. She was "brought back to us".
Each of these days we have been up at Childrens and London is doing "good". She's got beautiful color, her stats are great but her labs are what shows she needs her Norwood. I hate when doctors come in or we call in the morning. I hate every time they say she needed a blood transfusion. My stomach drops and I have held my breath more than I can count.
Trey has been amazing. He takes care of rolling my wheelchair around, helping my every move, helps me stand up, and has been PRECIOUS with London. He's so good at managing it all.
People ask how we are doing..we're surviving. Its such a hour by hour day. I hold her and just plead for her life. She's gorgeous and so perfect. It's so hard to look at her and know her heart is so wrong.
London has taught us the miracle of life, for on our knees prayers, and that this world has great people. All the people that have joined Londons heart, come to see us, sent us things, and cared for us without even knowing us. Most people in this world have great spirits.
Thank you for your prayers. This next week makes me nauseous to think about even though it will save her life. It's such a chess match.
We adore you beautiful girl, your birth was such an answered prayer and miracle.
So glad that this little cuties health is better than originally thought at birth. I hope and pray she just keeps getting better. I also pray that you and Trey keep strong during this uncertain time.
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