Prophecy and Busy bees!

This past week I had something so beautiful happen to me. I went this past Friday night with a friend to a church program her church was having on "healing". When I heard the word healing I knew that no matter what I needed to be there. I showed up a little nervous I would get too emotional and embarrass myself in church in front of all these new people. The first song we sang was "Healer" by Kari Jobe. That song felt so raw coming out of my mouth as the lyrics say:

"You hold my every moment. You calm my raging seas.
You walk with me through fire, and heal all my disease.
I trust in You, I trust in You.
I believe You're my Healer. I believe You are all I need.
Nothing is impossible for You, Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands."

After the first verse of the song the lady up front pointed at me through the audience and said "sweetie, do you mind coming up here?"
I walked up there and she told the congregation I needed prayer as I just heard daunting news about my baby. The whole congregation prayed and a few people laid hands on my stomach. During the service a lady reached over and whispered in my ear "She will be a princess for the Lord, an advocate for his miracles. She is special. It's all going to be alright." Nobody told them I was coming, nobody told them I had issues with the baby...

I left there feeling as though angels flooded those women and without me saying a word they knew I needed prayer and knew London's purpose. I believe the Lord gave them a pulling to talk to me and address London.
It was the first time I have experienced prophecy and it was amazing.

Since the change of news in our baby I have been in overdrive. I am usually type A and enjoy staying busy but lately it is times 5...or 10!
Our house is spotless, I spend hours in Target, go to the grocery store, started setting up London's room and have made numerous lists. Being busy is good for my mind right now. I feel happy when my life feels "normal" and not like our world is different.

My plans for London's room is I want it to feel "whimsical". I love Anthropologie and their style. I had to stay away from that look a little bit in the rest of our house because it can tend to feel "girly". London's room is free reign on GIRLY! Right now she has some coral ruffle curtains that are my favorite part of the room. Little miss will not get to see her room for the first few months of her life so when she comes home I want it to feel fun and care free. This style is something she can grow with and enjoy the patterns and colors.

Today we had our first regular ob appointment since the news. I felt such anxiety pulling up because it was the first doctors appointment. This appointment will be the least nervy because all he does is check my vitals/levels and listen to her heartbeat. Her heartbeat was strong and good. He said it is in the normal to strong range which is amazing if she is working with her left ventricle only! She has some sass to fight!

Because of our transition to Dallas, I'm sure the planning and decorating will continue and in full force. Everything will need to be done by the end of April.

Today I can go to sleep knowing my little girl is kicking, has a normal to strong heartbeat, and I'm holding up pretty darn well.

Bless her heart

We are having a baby girl! We could not be more excited. Her name will be London Claire Horkey.

On January 11th Trey and I went into the stork vision in Edmond to find out the sex of our baby. That was such a joy filled day. I woke up that morning and had all kinds of thoughts running through my head...today my life will change for the better. I will be a boy mom or a girl mom and I can finally call this baby in my tummy a name. Lunch came and I could barely handle my jitters! We got to stork vision a little early (out of excitement) and they let us in early. I laid on that table and teared the whole time as we watched our baby girl and each of her features. She had the sweetest feet, the sweetest hands, and most of all we watched her heart beating. She has life!
That following Monday I had a normal ob appointment just for a check up. Appointment went pretty normal and I sat in the room waiting for my doctor. He came in and looking back I could tell that something was wrong. Pretty soon after he came in he told me that "Stork vision found a pretty serious defect in the baby and you will need to go to a specialized doctor for futher analysis to see what we are looking at." My heart sank but it was also a survival mode of what my next steps were. I asked a few questions and found out information of where we needed to go. I was originally told that we would have to wait another 2 weeks for this appointment. I called Trey and broke down, it was more emotional coming out of MY mouth than someone elses. I had to tell somebody news that ripped my own heart right open. Trey immediately came to be with me and called a nurse who was able to get us in to the specialist that day. We immediately drove to Norman and sat in an office for hours.

Finally that night after analysis on London we saw answers. As of NOW she has a right ventricle defect. This diagnosis, if she in fact has this, she will need three open heart surgeries before the age of 3. They are called the Norwood, Glenn and Fontan procedures. We will meet with cardiologists in Dallas to confirm but our doctor was pretty confident that this is all we are looking at. He sees no other abnormalities in her.

What is so refreshing is London is not affected in any way right now. The placenta and heart function differently when she is inside the womb and she is getting everything she needs. Her problems would start after birth. Her birth and care will have to be in Dallas. Trey will stay here and just travel.

The first few days were terrible. I have never heard of a diagnosis like this and immediately thought the worst. How could a baby survive like this? Did I do this to her? Why me?

The answers are yes, babies can survive and thrive. Her chances are pretty darn good. No, I did not do this to her..its not genetic. The answer to "why me" I will never understand.

After many visits with nurses and researching, this is all doable...medically but also spiritually. I believe in the power of prayer. I believe in miracles and I also believe God knew of London and knew she would have this defect. He knew Trey and I would receive the gift of London. London's heart was created imperfectly but perfectly to me.

She already has taught us so much. Trey and I love each other beyond belief and will get through anything. Don't take health or life for granted. Be kind to each person you encounter because you never know what kind of day they are having nor the gravity of news they are having to accept. The power in the family of Christ. The "peace that surpasses all understanding".

Dont get me wrong, I am human. I have moments of fear, bitterness and just sadness. I wish I could just make it all go away. I wish she could have my healthy heart. I know those emotions will always be there. Its part of being human. I also remind myself, JESUS said "why have you forsaken me?" This surely allows us to have times of doubt.

I would like to ask all our prayer warriors to shoot for the moon. I pray that we can see a miracle in London for complete healing. Wouldn't it be great for me to go in to my next appointment and its fixed?? I am not one to think it cant happen. If not, thats okay.. I am up for this challenge. Thank you London for your life and we are your biggest soliders.