before London, my God will come through ALWAYS

I have struggled with putting this post up for a while because it seems like such a personal time to us. Before London came into this world, I worried about becoming a mother. I knew I was going to marry Trey but I didn't know how fast the baby bug would hit me. Right after we got married I really dreamed of a family. I wanted to meet ours. I have always been curious about my role as a mother. I took mental notes my entire life on what kind of mom I wanted to be. London didn't come about in 5 minutes, it was a sweet journey until she came into being. I can't say that we had lots of "trouble" because I know very many do, and I don't like to make light of that...but it surely was not an immediate thing.

The month before we found out about London there are some things that have stuck out to me that God has really reminded me of since her diagnosis.

1. I put this song on repeat that month..Always by Kristian Stanfill. The link is below if you would like to listen:

 

"My foes are many, they rise against me..but I will hold my ground. I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm, my help is on the way. My help is on the way.

O my God, he will not delay. My refuge and strength, always.

I will not fear, his promise is true...my God will come through, always."

 

This song seems to be part of who London is. Funny how he let me meditate on it before I even knew of her.

 

2. It was the first month in our new home. We successfully built our house, we decorated it how we liked, we started to create new memories. We were able to get settled and find out about her life there.

 

3. I took the test and found out we were getting blessed with her the DAY before we met our precious niece. The next day after finding out we were going to be parents we held a sweet newborn. I remember looking at that sweet new baby and holding back tears. I loved her so much instantly, how would I feel about my own?

 

 

4. We found out that London would be due in June, our wedding month.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I want to encourage all of you who are "waiting" on something. I encourage you to wait and see. His plan is so much better than yours. No this is NOT my plan for London to have a life threatening illness, but its his.

 

At church this Sunday they played "Always" and I was taken back. No matter what the story is for London, no matter what the end result is...she is here for a sweet reason. I am excited to meet her and find out why here, why this and why you? We love you.